Under the Sun

2007-12-07T17:21:00.000+08:00

I close both locks below the window

I close both blinds and turn away

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple

Sometimes good bye's the only way

And the sun will set for you

The sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day

Will embrace the world in grey

And the sun will set for you

In cards and flowers on your window

Your friends all plead for you to stay

Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple

Sometimes good bye's the only way

And the sun will set for you
The sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day
Will embrace the world in grey

And the sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day

Will embrace the world in grey

And the sun will set for you

And the shadow of the day

Will embrace the world in grey

And the sun will set for you

2007-11-27T08:55:00.000+08:00

When I see your smile

Tears roll down my face

I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok, It's ok, It's ok

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cause you're my

You're my

My true love

My whole heart

Please don't throw that away

Cause I'm here, for you

Please don't walk away and

Please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will

Pull my strings just for a thrill

And I know I'll be okay

Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I'm just dissappointed

2007-11-23T10:00:00.000+08:00

I'm dissappointed by his marks.

We expected more from him but from his marks, I just became speechless and stunned.

I got nothing to say to you boy but with your marks, You can't come to my school.Only your cuz can...

I'm just dissappointed.

I hope he wakes up and realise his mistakes.

Wake up and show to everyone you are someone.

Everyone have been looking down on you.

I know.

I've been there.

You and I know you have the potential.

But you gotta realise, it is only you who can summon it.

Not me.

Not anyone else.

I hope you improve.

I hope you will turn out good.

I hope you can finally shut your brother up who have been ridiculing you.

I hope you can prove that you are something.

PSLE is just a crucial step but not the final one.

You just have to work harder and pay attention.

Expected you to join me in VS but that is okay.

It does not matter what school.

I hope you do well soon.

I hope you do, my cuz...

2007-11-16T08:35:00.000+08:00

I'm back!

Tiring after 2 camps back to back.Right after china trip there Veloci-T camp the next day but it was worth it.Both were freaking fun.Bought some presents for people in singapore from china.Sorry for those I did not get anything from them!XD

Anyway had like a YMC gathering yesterday where the VS 'MAT's cycled like some freaks and the girls ended up skating.Abang Sat freaking cool seh skate here skate there like a professional.He got true the mat roadblock surprisingly.(That means we really suck or abang sat is really good or even both)Poor girls keep falling on their knees.

When the mats were cycling we decided to like grab each other's hands and push one another and also to so call 'drift'.Me and ziyad pushed one another but ended up both of us crashing into the railing of the bridge.out handles turned and ended up hiting our...I won't elaborate on that but it was painful.

Wisnuh and taufik went crazy and drifted using their bikes.cool man.I have the video but I can't transfer it since I am at my cuz house now.Haiz...

When it was time for abang sat and the girls return their equipment, I gave her the present and she said she liked it!I am so freaking happy when I read the sms!Hope it shows how much you mean to me and I hope it cheered you up!

after that we went bowling and I gave a new name for abang sat(for those mats u should know what i said).Since he was crazy and all I decided to name him Abang sot(is this how it's spelled?).It actually describes him so yeah.I hope he doesn't read this or else i'm screwed.

after bowling me and ziyad went to the mosque to pray and went back home.had a little emo talk with ziyad but i shan't elaborate. So the day was quite fun since the mats were around and yeah.thats it.

AND I'M BACK TO BLOGGING!

Sad Day,Sad Life

2007-09-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

I'm back to posting on my dead blog.

It was my birthday yesterday and it really sucks. I was utterly dissapointed and ended u[ being extremely moody for the whole day. I was saddened when most of my 6U(2005) classmates refuse to go out with me although it was my treat since they were busy. It was disspointing really, furthermore not many people knew and not many wished.Even my relatives forgot about it.I feel like just stop breathing somehow and just try to be happy.For those who wished me, thanks but for those who didn't, nevermind even though you knew. I was only happy and cheered up a little bit when my bro sent me and e-card and some of you wished me but it was still not enough to cheer me up at all. I'm just feeling emo.Feeling crazy.Feeling offended for no apparent reason. I'm just feeling extremely awful and ashamed of myself for no apparent reason. I'm extremely... sad after a very long time and frustrated. I don't even know what's wrong with me.Perhaps I'm surfering from Low self-esteem but I just don't know.I don't know what's wrong with me...

2007-07-29T15:58:00.000+08:00

It has been a really long time since I updated my blog so this is it...

We won gold for YSA and I am freakingly happy about it.Gonna have some sort of exhibition at Suntec this Saturday with Mr Balakrishnan and receiving the award that day too.I am so freaking excited although I didn't make it for the presentation as I was sick but they still won gold without me!

We had students from Guang Zhou this week and it was not bad but most of us felt bad since we did not do much with them enough and that they were much politer than us. I had to go home late every day and it was extremely exhausting as I had been going home late every single day for the past 3 weeks.I haven't had a good night sleep yet but at least I will have one tonight. The students left yesterday and we switched presents. It was kinda a sad moment since they only had been here for 5 days and nights in Singapore and rarely got to meet them at all but at least we might be going there at the end of the year!

There was NEWDC and NEVC PGD last Saturday and it was extremely funny since Buddin kept joking with the participants during the interview. i won't give you the full details but you might get to know them soon if I am willing to tell you.

I won't be posting much soon, perhaps for weeks, or months, but I will be posting but not as soon as one might think unless something funny or cool were to happen.

So goodbye for now, Freak...

2007-07-10T17:21:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I posted anything as I have been very busy for Victoria Challenge and also speech day and finals of NEVC NEWDC. I have not had any proper rest where I can just lie down somewhere and slack while watching TV but sadly I couldn't. Homework now is like a ton and it is just too difficult for me to juggle my CCA, Prefectorial Board,events,YSA(Youth Service Award) and competitions that CCA is hosting. My seniors was actually shocked and afraid after I became a prefect as they were worried if I could juggle my time well enough but I did although risking precious hours of sleep to do lots of stuff.

I went for my first Investiture at Bartley Secondary and frankly,it really stinks.The presentation and the introduction to their new council was not bad but their food and tour really sucks.It was just below average but I really expected more. I didn't get to switch numbers with any other prefects from other schools and that was what was expected.

Victoria Challenge is just in 2 days time and I am really excited although we are baking 131 cakes but because of the fact that we are overnighting in school!Not many of us overnighting but still this could be fun. So far I have taken 3 orders and anyone who wish to order a 1KG marble cake from me for $10,please contact me at 98450792 ASAP.LOL.Im advertising something that I'm not willing to talk about much.haha.Anyway Mr You said that for those who wanna overnight can sleep at DNT room and let us enjoy aircon.lol.Mr You is so good for letting us,2I boys who happen to be quite notorious for smuggling, to actually enjoy aircon.LOL!

Since it has been a long time since I posted,I decided to post my first long one!Yippee!But I know that others have much longger ones but hey,this is my start.Until then,FREAK, goodbye for now...

2007-06-30T20:54:00.000+08:00

This happened yesterday in school.Andres,Ernest and me had a strange encounter.It was the encounter with the third kind.no it is not an alien but a gay.In Victoria School.What the Heck?How can this be?He is the band senior and he told us he was gay.At first we thought he was joking but it is true.It was freaky.Ernie sat down on the bench and the band senior sat beside him and then Buddin sat at the other side.Ernie was freaking scared.He was like "OMG" and was trying to get away from them but they kept coming closer and closer but he finally got out and ran back to the CCA room.The band senior was staring at Ernie before Ernie sat down as if he was gay too.This experience is really scary and I didn't expect that there were any real gays in VS at all.That is disgusting...

2007-06-27T15:45:00.000+08:00

One thing I've learnt about us,Singaporeans, have the tendencies to do something or be someone who is really irritating and really moronic.I can't say I'm not a Singaporean cos I am one but in this post about Singaporean doesn't apply to everyone.Most Singaporeans,At least 30% of Students and 70% of working adults have the tendency to be immature about small things and are very inconsiderate and selfish.one of their values is also that the tend to "Mind their own business".I realised how bad we singaporeans are and this so called "virtue" might apply to me and a lot of people I know.I only realised this when I saw a fight between 2 men at bedok interchange and no adult stopped them from fighting but instead just walked pass them and stared at them.there were only a few people who tried to stop it.I feel that Singaporean's like us should improve ourselves and should not be so much on a rush and be inconsiderate and selfish. This virtue's will not make us progress into the future but it is just too bad that not many people realise that they are what they are and expect everyone else to make way for them.

2007-06-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

Start of a new term and a new day and it is really really exhausting.First thing I remembered when I came back is that i just realised I am the Asst monitor and it is nerve racking to just keep the class quiet.I can't sleep at the previous night at all.Laid in bed at 10 but stayed awake until all the way to 1.30am.I only slept at around 2 i checked my hp to make sure my alarm was on.when the alarm went off, I got up from bed as if I had been awak the whole night but in school I was extreamely exhausted but luckily Mrs Rama was kind enough to let us have a free period and so I slept but Mrs Rama kind of woke me up and told me try not to get to sleep but today is a really horrible day for me.can't sleep,can't eat,can't do anything much.I just don't know if I can recover from this Post-Holiday blues as this is the worst that have ever happened to me.I just can't concentrate but hey,my friends were there the whole time to keep me company and spend the last 4 periods talking cock non-stop.

2007-06-17T12:48:00.000+08:00

Only one more week of holiday before school starts again.time flies really fast.Too fast.I had a really sucky oliday,didn't go out much because my kitchen is under renovation and that the apartment above is also under renovation and the noise is undescribable.It is freaking noisy and it just makes my day worst.Lucky thing is that playing Fifa and turning on music really relieves the pain but still,it really sucks staying here.I don't know why but after one week of holiday,I kinda missed school and friends aas at least I have something to study and learn but staying at home is way boring and that all I do all day is just... EAT,SLEEP.WATCH TV,PLAY FIFA AND CHAT.As you can see here is that my life at home alone is really really miserable and I am just glad school is about to open soon...

2007-06-05T14:49:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow I'm buying tickets forthe class gathering for those people who are ordering from me.Sadly, the response so far is not that good at all.I was actually hoping that the response will be good just like last year's class gathering when we watched Ice Age but still this time's response was crap.I hope more people will come but my hopes are not that high.

Anyway, I already liked someone else but this time i will not name her for her own sake and also to protect her identity but I just hope she accepts me somehow but I just don't know what to expect.A friend told me to take it slowly and be friends for awhile right now since I just screwed up but for those who knows who I like if you actually somehow find out,please do not spread as it will hurt her more than it will hurt me.

2007-06-04T08:06:00.000+08:00

I haven't been posting for quite awhile due to either i'm busy or that i'm playing games or just that I'm lazy. I just want to make it clear for all those who keep visiting my blog especially people from my school that I DO NOT like Hanis anymore.I've been over it already and have already liked someone else and there is no need for anyone to keep bugging and calling me Dzafinis.I do NOT even like that name.It keeps reminding so please just forget about bugging me.

Other than that I actually got 90th position out of 222 pupils.It was very surprising as I thought I screwed up my SA1 and that I will be the bottom 50 just like the time I came into VS but still I'm grateful to get this posotion and that I would like to thank everyone who have helped me out throughout the half-year and I promise I WILL improve my Math!

2007-05-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the last paper... and the to total FREEDOM!!!Not total freedom but at least i get to play games.Today's paper was higher malay and it wasn't too bad.It was surprisingly not harder then miss marliza's papers.It was do-able and i kinda get one wrong in peribahasa but nvm and i just hope for the best. Math paper yesterday was like.... Crap!It sucked. I didn't finish both papers and I was like wanting to die. My head wanted to blow up after the exam and so i slept for a LONG time.It really relieved my of a lot of pain from thinking.I just hope that i can pass this paper and score in the other subject so that i can get the top 100 to make my family proud so that they won't think im a slacker...

2007-05-03T20:09:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow exam starts...Have been mugging for more than 2 weeks straight.Tomorrow is EL Paper 1 and I always find a way to just SCREW UP.I hope I don't. I really want to do well. It's just too bad my english is crap and so is Rama. I would really need a lot of luck now since SA1 is back...

2007-04-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

The match between Liverpool and Wigan was not bad but quite exciting. Wigan played quite well but was still BATTERED by Liverpool 2-0. Nice one by Kuyt but it wasn't enough to get a hat-trick. With arsenal only having a draw, the chances or Liverpool to secure the 3rd place properly is VERY HIGH so for all those Arsenal fans out there, just think of trying to finish 4th and not let spurs put you out of the Champions league for next year.

The match coming up between Liverpool and Chelsea will be a difficult one. With Jose mournho still have his great skill as a manager, Liverpool will have to fight their way through Chelsea before going to the finals and hoping to meet AC Milan. AGAIN.

2007-04-21T11:46:00.000+08:00

It's only 3 weeks away from exam and most people are mugging except me.What the heck?Why mug?Just revise your work over and over again and most probably ou will ace all the exams.I just understand these people. I also just got news that Andres is going for IP. I'm willing to bet $50 that he won't get through as even Wong didn't last year. Andres thinks he is so brilliant or something. He also refuse to go for this year's camp. Probably because he is too scared. Hope he become so embarrassed by not going through IP and in next year's camp, I make sure he is gonna suffer...

2007-04-02T17:55:00.000+08:00

I already gave hanis the b'day present and she was quite happy about it. I can't actually belive cos she also say she liked it. I hope i can plan a way to get her back somehow. sms her something like i still like her only that i should phrase it better this time and if i do succeed, i swear i am not going to screw up like last time. I hope she gives me a second chance and finally accept me. I just hope so.

2007-03-27T17:08:00.000+08:00

Three days from now hanis will be receiving her b'day present and i just bought it. Can't say what it is just in case hanis finds out. After that went to take 15 home and took DDDDDDDAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNNNNN long. Can die taking it. I even slept in the bus and almost missed my bus stop. I hope hanis would like the b'day present. I hope.

2007-03-24T12:20:00.000+08:00

Walao.Freaking sad after my CA1 results.didn't do as good as I wanted to do.Stupid languages and art pull me down like siao.My results are really bad.

Subject Score Grade Band Pupils Top Score
ENGLISH LANGUAGE 57.0 C5 M2 358 83.0
HIGHER MALAY 47.0 D7 B 32 72.0
GEOGRAPHY (REVISED)62.0 B4 M1 358 94.0
MATHEMATICS 76.6 A1 M1 358 94.0
SCIENCE 84.1 A1 T 358 91.7
HOME ECONOMICS 79.0 A1 M1 340 91.3
VISUAL ART 66.0 B3 M2 340 94.0
Total Marks
471.7 / 700
Average Mark
67.4
Mean Subject Grade (MSG)
3.1

If my mom were to see this she will be like "What crap is this?" and "How can u fail ur higher malay and do so badly for ur English?"I will be dead.If only my language teachers were the same as last years.I most porbably had done much better.Hope I can find help for my languages.

2007-03-13T17:33:00.000+08:00

13 March and tommorrow is our GOW competition.Freaking nervous. Our first match is against Tanglin Secondary and I hope my team get to crush them.Only 1 problem. Berwin and Jonathan suck like crap!In the end berwin became our third person but i hope we get 1st.I hope we win.

The truth

2007-02-27T17:13:00.000+08:00

I jst have to admit it.although I already liked someone else,I still like hanis.I just can't get away from that fact.I know that the girl I like now is better but my heart still tells me that I still like hanis.Its just Very hard or maybe too hard for me to get over it....

...

2007-02-21T17:41:00.000+08:00

From the previous post is that of course it is my old school and not my current one.That will just be gay.Yuck!

...

2007-02-21T17:38:00.000+08:00

I have decided that from now on I will forget about hanis...The sooner I face the facts the sooner I will be on my way.Now I will just try get get someone else.Maybe someone I know for quite awhile.Someone who I can talk to easily at anytime.Someone maybe from my old class...

2007-02-14T17:34:00.000+08:00

Well since I haven't written anything for a long time since I was busy, Here are my updates...

On 9 Feb I heard my bro's voice in the living room when he was supposed to be in Brunei.And it was shocking to see him back!My dad and him kept a secret and he actually came back!Wow pretty amazing though to see him now.Missed him for a long time.

Today was a harsh day since it was Valentine's day and I did not have any Valentine.It really sucked!Mr You even forced us to stay back till 4.30pm just to decorate the classroom for CNY.What the Hell???I really wanted to strangle him and start stabbing his stomach and let all the oil spill out.Sad though I did not have a valentine.I was hoping to ask Hanis out and give her a present but I was just a coward.Maybe I can do that on her birthday and buy her a really good gift...

Rama

2007-02-06T15:52:00.001+08:00

Rama today anyhow scold people like some moronic maniac anyhow scold.Why she hate us so much?Might as well just retire and just die and let another teacher like Mr Chong to teach us.even my higher malay teacher is not good at all.I wonder why old teachers aren't good at teaching.Maybe MOE should make a rule that a teacher must undergo observation every 4 years and let students do a reflection on them at the end of the year.This way they can locate those no good teachers and fire them or let them undergo a training.

Rama really need to improve

2007-02-06T15:40:00.000+08:00

Rama Sucks

2007-02-06T15:34:00.000+08:00

Prison Break

2007-02-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

I just watched the last episode of Prison Break Season 1 and it is so surprising.Nick Savrinn and his dad dies.Westmoreland died of his wound.Sucre's Cuz got nabbed and he told the guards who ran off.What kind of friend is that?Doesn't even help to cover up.Veronica Donovan got to meet terence Steadman which was supose to be dead.I really really really want to watch the next season.From what I heard Bellick got to jail and that Scofield died in the end.Westmoreland even told Scofield where the money he stole is buried and how much it was actually worth.It was not 1 million but 5 million.Just right for the last 5 people who got away.Oh I almost forgot, T-bag even got his hand chopped off by Abruzzi.That was sweet.Serve him right for all the thing he has done.

Podcasting

2007-02-01T16:33:00.000+08:00

Podcast at IT Club website is out! Podcast 505 is actually out.Sadly, podcast 404 is not out yet just like Microsoft delaying the launch of Vista.Check it out now at http://itclub.vs.moe.edu.sg

Fed Up

2007-01-23T17:33:00.000+08:00

Now i'm so fed up with all this thinking.I keep thinking about her although I'm trying to forget it.It's so hard and maybe impossible.It's like trying to extract your heart with cutting yourself up.Everytime I think about it, My heart feels as if it starts bleeding.Maybe I need some help or someone else to think about...Maybe it's time I really forget about her.............

What a dumb guy I am

2007-01-22T16:12:00.000+08:00

Man...I just found out Hanis hates me...*Sobs* Why am I so bloody stupid on these things?!Perhaps I'm just not good enough for her standard.Stupid sia... like crying after I heard that she still hates me like siao and she still thinks I was the one betrayed her.Maybe I did but I don't know if i did.I just want her know how I feel and the pain I'm going through.I'm just One freaking dumb guy.........

English Homework.Still haven't done it!

2007-01-20T18:17:00.000+08:00

Wah...Mrs Rama is so boring and she still expects us do homework.Journal writing is like writing a list of lies on paper which is such pathetic.Mrs Rama don't even know how to teach us properly.She keeps on talking and talking softly like a squeeky mouse that cant even squeek.She does't understand us Victorians maybe because we are guys and she is a female.Now my classmates and I are planning to piss her off on her next lesson by doing some tricks that my seniors taught me.I hope she hates us doing and just resigns so that we can get Mr Kenneth Chong back to teach us and show us his funny clips!Mrs Rama is really a *suay teacher.

*Jinxed